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2016 recap..

January– I got my new year off to a bad start with sinusitis which was awful, especially during pregnancy. It was so painful so had to get to doctors to get antibiotics to help with it. Then on the 3rd we had a christening to attend for our Godson Kallum. It was a lovely day out but felt sorry for my cousin as no one other than family turned up. A few days later I got given our pushchair for our baby (second hand Quinny but in good condition). I started to sort out baby clothes so that it was properly sorted into sizes and gender neutral on top. Later in the month our car started to break so we had to look for something else. We had to act quickly and when I asked Ali for the evening off to view a car we liked (I was babysitting her kids so she could work), she got really funny with me. We picked up our new Mazda 5 at the end of the month. Kayleigh also did her Rainbow promise this month too. And we got the official invite to Sophia and Daves wedding (& the girls tried on their flower girl dresses). We also went for a meal for mine and Jais birthdays.

February– this month we went to Soph and Daves engagement party- they hired out a house and held a casino night. Was a good laugh. It was my 27th birthday.. nothing too exciting happened for this. We received Pete (my brother) and Jems wedding invitation for May. Valentines Day we didn’t do a lot for either.. cooked a meal at home for us both to enjoy (alone once girls were in bed). We got our new wardrobe set for our bedroom too.

March– this month I started decorating the nursery, it was a last minute decision to do it but it’s been the same since our first was born so well over due. We started working out how to do the car seats in the car ready for baby’s arrival. We completed the nursery set up and made it all ready for his/her arrival. It was Mother’s Day and as usual I was spoilt by my hubby and girls. We visited the grave so I could see my boy and Jai could see his mum. We did some birthday present shopping for Peyton whilst I was able to. And we also took a trip around the park- playtime for the girls. We had a monitor session at the hospital after I had some tightening- turned out it was due to a UTI. My new changing bag arrived (penguin design from Pink Lining). And I even painted our bedroom over at 36+ weeks. It was also the anniversary of little Samuels birth/death so we visited him again. Then we had Easter and we did an egg hunt for the girls.

April- this was a very busy month for us. First we had Peytons birthday- she turned 3. We had a mini party at our house for her with family and friends coming to visit. On her actual birthday we went to Cattle Country for the day with Sophia. We had a blast. Then we had the wedding of a friend of mine, which wasn’t too fun being so heavily pregnant, not being able to drink and looking a state haha, shame that looking back that marriage has since broken up now. A couple of days later Jai’s “second mum” got engaged and asked if Jai would do the honours of walking her down the aisle when they finally get married. Then on the 12th I had to take two buses to my mums, drop off the girls and then walk to the village (20minutes waddle) for a hair trial for my sister in laws wedding. I remember sat in that chair feeling really off, I actually accepted a glass of water and I never do that when out. I picked up the girls and spoke to my mum about feeling off and she said she’d have her phone with her all night, and on the bedside table all night too. I went to get the bus home but didn’t feel great so called my Grandad to take us all home instead. I got the girls to bed and went to bed myself as I still didn’t feel well, I’d been having very irregular Braxton hicks pains since about 8pm.

I then woke at around 1:30am with what felt like a weird popping kick in my tummy, shrugged it off and tried to go back to sleep. Shortly after I felt another one, this time I decided to go to the toilet in case it was my water popping. I just got to the toilet as my waters ruptured. I then called Jai as he still wasn’t home from work, he was just on his way home, just coming off the motorway. I called my mum, seven times, but she never answered. I then tried calling my Grandad and he answered in seconds. He came round and picked up the girls and took them back to his house for the rest of the night and would take them to school the next day. Jai then took me into the birth centre to be monitored as my labours are usually fairly quick. I was offered the birth pool which I loved but it slowed the already irregular pains I was getting. I was examined but was only at 1-2cm, which is normal for a closed cervix after 1 or more children, so I was deemed not in labour. I was later sent around the park for a walk to try to start things up but it did nothing. I was told it maybe best to go to the bigger hospital in case I needed to be induced as they didn’t want me to go over 24 hours with broken waters, and they knew tomorrow was very busy. We got to the other hospital at about 10:30 and I was hooked up to the monitor to check on Erin in the triage, and she was still happy. During the monitoring the crampy pains came back but stronger. After 20 minutes I was taken off the machine and the midwife walked off. About 5 minutes later I got the urge to push and I knew baby was on its way. I was still in the triage at this point, and only privacy was the thin curtain. I buzzed for a midwife but no one came so Jai ran off to get one. Apparently they said “yeah we’ll be in soon” and he had to tell them to come now. Then 3 of them ran into my bay and checked to see baby crowning. They grabbed the bed and started wheeling me down the corridor to find a free room. I was telling the midwife I needed to push but she shouted at me to not push in the corridor, and she had her hand down there and felt like she was pushing on babys head. they finally found me a free room and, after the midwife crashing the bed into the door frame they got me in and in a couple of pushes I delivered our little baby. It all happened very quickly, midwives guessed labour time as 40 minutes (which was the amount of time I was in the unit total). Our third daughter was born at 11:25am weighing 6lb 3oz. Unfortunately the midwife from triage never let Jai cut the chord and did it herself without even asking. After the initial checks we were left for ages, not even water to drink in the room. I didn’t get any food until around 2pm, hadn’t eaten since 6pm the night before, and even then it was food I shouldn’t have been eating with my allergy band. Then a midwife came back and started talking about admitting us to the ward, she then tutted at me when I mentioned wanting to go home, as she had to fill out more paperwork. Finally we got to leave at around 3pm, and we went to go pick up our big girls and show them their new little sister. Then after my nan had a cuddle we went to my parents so they, and my brother and sister in law, could meet her and have a quick cuddle.

The very next morning I was up and out doing the school run, everyone commenting about how amazing that was. I didn’t have a whole lot of choice as Jai had to work that afternoon so I had to pick up from school. I had Jai’s “second mum” come round to meet Erin with her daughter Mya. Our girls are totally besotted with their baby sister and always wanting to cuddle her. We made her official and registered her birth at 2 days old. We had more visits from my parents for cuddles etc. I so enjoyed having a teeny baby again. We took Erin into my mums workplace (also where me and Jai used to work in the past) for some of our friends to meet her too. At 10 days old we took Erin and her big sisters to a studio for a photoshoot to document our teeny tiny littlest girl. We got some nice family pictures and also some lovely pictures of all our girls.

May- Early May my auntie and uncle came up to visit and meet their latest great niece, we met around my nans so I didn’t have to host it all. My auntie had 3 boys but always wanted a girl so she loves cuddles with my girls. She crocheted a lovely blanket for me that I had asked for. I had my final dress fitting around my mums for my brother and sister-in-laws wedding later this month. The dress is awful and so ill fitting. I was made to order it when I was 6 months pregnant so I had to guess how big I’d be after, which annoyingly was nowhere as big as I had guessed. During this month I booked Erin’s baptism and had to attend weekly meetings for 3 weeks in a row to show our commitment to the baptism. Due to work Jai could only attend one session but luckily they still let us get her baptised.

Then we get onto my brother and sister-in-laws wedding. It was very eventful. I helped for a bit setting up the room the day before, couldn’t stay too long as I had to do the school pick up and she had so much that needed doing. Then came to the day of the wedding. I had to get to my parents house for about 8 am ready to have hair and makeup etc done and get the girls ready, and my brother came round to my house to get ready with Jai. Everything went fairly smoothly with us but my SIL’s parents were supposed to come to mine before the church to drop off their dogs for the day, but they were stupidly late, making Jai and my brother late, so Jai had to come and get our car and go back home to wait for them (was supposed to get a lift up with my brother). I found it very hard work trying to meet my SIL calm during the wait as she was so worried that her dad was going to make us all late, we sent the other bridesmaid across to the church to keep everyone else informed. Eventually he showed up with Jai, after he had dropped his car over at the venue with her mum and brothers. We eventually headed off. Me and Jai first to get things ready and them behind. The ceremony went well apart from Erin being a bit whingy but Jai stood at the back of the church holding her to keep her calm. Then we went onto the daytime venue. The meal was ok, the speeches were funny, even got my own shout out in my dads speech (I had to take Peyton to the toilet and he tried thanking the bridemaids but I wasn’t there so got the shout out as I returned). I was lucky that Erin slept the whole way through the daytime meal meaning I could enjoy myself a bit. I’d expressed a couple of bottles incase for Jai to feed her in the church or the venue as I couldn’t feed in my dress. During the interval I got changed in to a dress that I could feed in, my SIL wasn’t happy I changed but I needed to be practical and found a very similar colour. The evening was ok but I did feel sorry for my brother as a lot of guests didn’t show or come back, and even my SILs parents left at about 8/9, which I thought was awful behaviour. They didn’t even say goodbye to my parents who had hosted the wedding for their daughter. My dad had asked me earlier when to book their taxi for and I said 11 so that they could leave before others, turns out there was only 10 people left at 11 so not many to see them off. They seemed to have a good day regardless and we all left shortly after they did as the girls were knackered and so were we.

June- This month was Erins baptism. we had a lovely time, a fair few people showed up which was nice. It was a lovely ceremony and the after “party” was nice too. Our girls all looked beautiful in their dresses. The only problem we had was my nan who confronted my auntie about the drama between her and my mum – which was uncalled for especially on Erins day. I later spoke to her to tell her how much it annoyed me. Then it was our anniversary, 4 years married and 7 together, I got Jai a book full of pictures from our lives together so far. Jai got me a Calla Lily flower and a few other bits, including a Pandora charm and he made me homemade quesadillas for our dinner which were delicious. Then Fathers Day came around and I had made Jai a scrabble art frame, which had all our names in it with a word art background, and I also had a picture from the photoshoot blown up and framed for him.

July- This month my little Kayleigh turned 6. We had planned a lovely mermaid party planned for her. She had all her friends to come to St Barnabas Hall with a bouncy castle and lots of fun. Then we went to Cotswold Wildlife Park for the day with my mum, brother, SIL and friend. We then had Kayleighs sports day which I love watching and seeing how well she does in her events, she always tries so hard. We did the Race for Life this month too. Me and my mum ran the Pretty Muddy race and the next day we ran the 5k Race for Life race with Kayleigh too. Kayleigh did well but she gets bored runny the whole way.

At the end of the month we  had my friends wedding. In the morning of the wedding we went to her house for some pre-wedding stuff. In her culture its tradition for the brother of the groom to barter with the brides brother for the brides hand for his brother. After this had happened she was allowed downstairs. My two older girls were flower girls for her, she gave them little presents from the day which was lovely. It was very interesting for me as she’s Serbian so the wedding was so different to what we’re used to. The men stand to one side of the room and the woman on the other side. The church itself is so colourful and pretty. My girls were good as flower girls although maybe a bit quick down the aisle. During the ceremony the bride got faint and was given a chair and some water. I loved the ceremony and how different it all is. They even get crowned during it which is lovely. Then after the ceremony they did pictures and then we waited outside the church. They arrived outside and the tradition to throw pennies to the ground for others to pick up – which my girls loved collecting haha. Then it was onto the next venue. We went to our hotel first to set everything up and then went to the reception venue. It was beautiful. The big girls were given a goody bag to keep them entertained during the meal. In Serbian tradition a selected male of the table cuts the meat for the whole table. It was Jai for our table however the meat was way to pink for my liking (honestly the whole meal wasn’t my ideal). We watched the couple cut their cake and enjoyed the break in between the meal and the evening do. Then we had fun at the evening do, although not so much for me as I wasn’t drinking due to driving back to the hotel. The hotel was tiny but ok and the breakfast the next day was nice.

August- Our Summer Holidays consisted of park trips and day trips to Gloucester, just going on walks etc. We had a family holiday this month and took the girls to Devon for a week. This was our first time taking the girls to the new place my parents have their caravan, Woodbury. It was ok, but boring compared to what I’m used to, there wasn’t a lot to do there and required us driving out most days. There was only a tiny camp shop on site but nothing else. We spent a lot of our time exploring Exmouth and the beach there, took a daytrip over to Dawlish and Cofton to go swimming. After our holiday Peyton had her first Opthalmology appointment for her eyes, it turns out she has quite a bad turn in her left eye and she will need glasses to help correct it. They also said she may need to use patches to help correct it at a later date too, and at a very worst case she may need surgery to help but hopefully it wont come to that. Erin also got her first two teeth this month too, at just 18 weeks old. We took a few more day trips, to Gloucester and other places to get the kids out and have some fun. At the end of the month I met up with some mums I met on Facebook who all have babies around the same age as Erin, it was really nice, although my anxiety was through the roof. I don’t know if I’ll be able to meet them much though as they all drive and will meet in other locations that I can’t really get to.

September- This month we started Erin on a bit of real food, which she loved. She preferred it much more than having bottles. Kayleigh went into Year 2 at school this year, I cant believe how quickly she’s growing. Erin finally started to get better with other people, but seems to be ok if I’m out of the room. Then we had Peyton start at playgroup, she’s going to the lovely local church playgroup that Kayleigh went to. The staff there are brilliant and its like a little family, although there is a new manager since Kayleigh left and apparently things have changed a bit. It’s also been a year since it was Samuel’s due date, still think about him every single day and miss my baby boy so much it hurts. I have very mixed feelings though as if he was still with us then Erin wouldn’t be… We also had a trip to LEGOLAND this month with my brother and sister-in-law, which was a good trip even if they did get stroppy with each other. We later had our drive started in our front garden, the drop curb was finished but still awaiting the finishing touches to the main drive part.

October- This month we had to go to my Nans when Anth and Lou came down and wanted to see the girls. Peyton had her next appointment with the Opthalmologist and they decided that she needed patches to help her left eye get better and to help it turn back the right way. It broke my heart as she said she couldn’t see anything when the patch was first put on. We took the girls to the park and to mcdonalds as a treat for Peyton being so brave. Kayleigh also lost her first tooth this month, very exciting time for her. We took the girls on a few park trips over the half term making the most of the good weather. At the end of the month we took the girls trick or treating around my parents street as its better there.

November- This month Peyton got some rewards for doing so well with her patches. We took the girls to see the fireworks at the Racecourse. We also went to the Remembrance Day Service in the town centre to support those who fought and lost their lives in the wars. We went to Gloucester to see the Christmas Lights Switch On, which the kids loved. I also attended my friends baby shower, which was dire as so many people didn’t show up. I started my diet and exercise at the end of the month too.

December- I had fun this month doing the elf on the shelf – well it was fun when well planned and not on the days I forgot until I got into bed haha. The girls wrote their letters to Santa. We got to watch Kayleigh in her Christmas Performance at school, she was a caroller. Peyton was a cow in her Christmas Nativity at playgroup, and they had santas grotto where her and Erin got a little present. We also got new windows put in by the council which is amazing as now there’s no draft in the front room. I also fell doing my workout and my ankle swelled up to the size of an orange, quick trip to A&E showed that it was a very bad sprain, luckily. In the Christmas holidays I took the kids to a bounce and play session at a local school which they loved. We made some Christmas pictures using the girls foot and hand prints. We had a fun relaxing Christmas eve and then spent Christmas day around my parents with my brother, his wife and their dog too. We started Christmas morning at home and opened presents from each other before heading around to my mums. We then exchanged presents over there and then we had a lovely cooked dinner. After dinner we went to visit my nan and granddad. We exchanged presents over theirs too and the girls had a little play too. Then we headed back to my mums for the rest of the afternoon/evening. Then we came back home for the night, we had a great day and it was a brilliant first Christmas for Erin. On Boxing Day I spent the day with my Nan and Grandad, Jai unfortunately had to work. The girls played with their new toys and we had a second Christmas dinner. a few days later we went visiting and saw Jai’s “mother-figure” and her kids, which was ok – I always feel a bit awkward though. Then it was time to bring in the new year, again we were at my mums, we played board games and watched the fire works come in at midnight.

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2015 recap…

So much has happened over the past couple of years since I last posted. It’s been a really rollercoaster over the past couple of years.

So last I left in January 2015 I was newly pregnant and everything was happy. We were due to have our third baby in September 2015. Then we had our first scan, I was about 13 weeks when it came around. It went well until we were told that there was excess fluid behind the baby’s neck. We were told to come back in a couple of days for a consultant appointment and another scan.

At the next scan the consultant confirmed the fluid behind the neck, he stated that he thought the fluid could mean either Turners Syndrome (only associated with girls) or a heart condition. He suggested doing either a CVS or an amniocentesis (CVS could be done straight away as my placenta was at the front, or amniocentesis in a week or so when I was further along). I always swore blind that I’d never had these tests done but in the moment we both decided to go for it as we’d like to know what we faced if baby was ill. The CVS was the worst thing I’ve ever felt, they could only numb part of me so I could feel the needle go into my womb and into the placenta and the jigging around to get the sample. After it was done he showed us our baby and that it was still moving happily etc. Then we were told it would be a few days for the results and had to leave still worried.

It was only about 2 days later that I got the phone call from the hospital. They confirmed that the results suggested that it wasn’t Turners as previously suggested and they’d also checked for Downs, Edwards and Patau Symdroms (trisomy 21, 18 and 13) and we were clear of them all. It was such a huge relief knowing that there wasn’t a big chromosomal problem. We were booked in for a follow up scan at 16 weeks to check baby’s heart.

We decided to announce our pregnancy on Mothering Sunday and share our happy news with our family and friends.

About 2 weeks later we went for the follow up scan at 16 weeks. It was all a bit hazy but I remember the consultant congratulating us over the results and asked if we knew the sex (he clearly did). Then I remember him saying “bollocks” over and over again, before telling us he was sorry to say we lost our baby. I had to ask him the sex of our baby to which he said it was a boy. It felt like he’d stuck a knife right into my heart. We were escorted straight into a side room to discuss our options. I had the choice of taking a pill to let it happen naturally, having the surgery to have him removed or being induced and going through labour to deliver him. After some discussion we both decided that the labour option would be best for us both. I was given a tablet to help the placenta detach and told to call the hospital in two days to go in (or sooner if anything changed).

Two days later on 26th March 2015 we were told to come into Gloucestershire Royal Hospital to be induced. Initially we had to wait around with other expectant mums which was a little hard but were quickly seen to our room. We were given a private suite room (including bathroom and mini kitchen/tv room). It was called the Snowdrop suite. We had doctors coming in to ask if we would like to have him cremated separately or in a communal cremation. We opted for separate so that we could have a little funeral for him etc. I was the put onto the bed and the induction process was started. It took 3 tablets to start off my contractions and even from there it took 3 hours, just over, for him to be delivered. It was by far my worst labour – my longest and knowing we couldn’t bring him home hurt like hell! My waters went and I was stuck to the toilet over a bedpan as they were very bloody. Then quickly after he came along. The midwife cut the cord and changed the bedpans over. Delivering the placenta was another issue, it wouldn’t detach from the wall and the midwife couldn’t get the cord as it was so small. It got to the point I was told I had 10 minutes to deliver the placenta before I would be taken to surgery. Luckily with a couple of minutes to spare I managed to push it out.

The next few minutes were awful. It took me a while to go and see him- the midwife had presented him in a little basket for us to see him. He looked the spitting image of his dad, same face shape and everything. It amazes me how developed he was being only 16 weeks. We had the vicar come to us and bless him- which broke me into pieces. I had remained so strong until that moment. Watching Jai see him and hold him was awful, seeing how upset he is was so painful- he hides his feelings so much that when he does break down on the very rare occasions it’s horrible. We had another midwife pop in to see us- she was the mum of a friend of ours and saw our names and came to see how we were doing, which was so lovely.

We eventually decided to leave and had my dad come to pick us up from the hospital. On the way out we got taken a back route to avoid all the happy new mums on delivery suite. However whilst waiting for the lift we saw and saw a brand new baby crying which was so awful and heartbreaking.

For a while after I felt so empty but we decided to jump straight into planning his funeral. We decided that it would be lovely to bury him with Jais mum as she was always desperate for Grandchildren, and I’d like to think he was up there with her anyway. He messaged Ali (Jais mums best friend) and Lace (Jais sister) about the decision and their reactions were so different. Ali thought it was lovely and a nice idea to do that, however Lace gave us hell. She claimed we were horrible people for “digging up her mum” and that we were heartless (and a few other names I won’t go into). She completely broke me, I had considered her like a best friend and thought we were close so did now expect this the day after I delivered my dead son. We continued with our plans regardless. (We actually had the grave slightly extended as it was a big lot).

Life then went on for a bit, we couldn’t have his funeral until the 13th April. In that time we had Peytons birthday. She turned 2 on April 3rd. We had a small party at our house for her and went out to All Things Wild for the day too. She had a great day and it was almost like none of the bad things had happened.

Lace continued to make our life hell- making me get kicked out of Time Out – it was apparently making things awkward for the other mums because she was being a bitch. I was gutted, at a time I needed them the most she was such a cow.

April 13th came along fast and we had a very small funeral for him- just close friends and family- Lace never showed up so clearly showing how she felt. It was a lovely little funeral for him and afterwards me, Jai, the girls, mum, dad, Pete and Jem went to Wetherspoons for some food- dad even paid for us all. My mum even got me a charm for Samuel to keep with me all the time.

The rest of April was a bit of a blur but we had a little Godson Kallum Born this month (my cousins son, she didn’t want to tel me that she had him initially as she was worried about upsetting me). Then we buried Samuel into his grave with his Nanny and Auntie on the 29th April.

We also bought a “new to us” car this month. A Vauxhall Zafira- our mondeo needed a new turbo that we couldn’t afford so got this instead.

May– we had a wedding of an old friend of mine to attend, which was a bit awkward as we knew hardly anyone there. We also spent some time rearranging the grave site and making it look a lot nicer. And we got to finally meet Kallum (tiny little dot as he was 6 ish weeks early). We also decided to start “trying” for another baby as soon as. Well we didn’t try as such but we didn’t prevent it happening.

June– not a lot significant happened. We celebrated our 3 year wedding anniversary, and 6 years of dating- had a lovely massage for our date.

July– our first baby Kayleigh turned 5. We took her for a day trip to Cotswold Wildlife Park and she also had a princess party as well. We had a lovely time on the day out and had my brother and his wife and my best friend and her boyfriend (now husband) join us. It also involved the end of Kayleigh’s first year in school and her first sports day. Plus her very first Race for Life 5k run!

August– this is where Peytons potty training journey began and thankfully it wasn’t too stressful- she was practically changed in a week. We took a few day trips to Weston- super-mare and Evesham splash zone. Also this month we found out we were pregnant again. I remember feeling so scared and worried but also so happy and excited at the same time. I made a doctors appointment straight away to make sure they were aware after what happened earlier in the year. I remember the appointment like it was yesterday. The doctor told me to give him a urine sample, he tested it there and then saying it was negative- without giving it a time to show up. There was a faint line but he was reluctant to give me midwife information, but I got it from reception instead.

Me and the girls had more summer fun, we did a trail of the scrumpy tour of Gloucester and made cakes etc.

September – saw Kayleigh start Year 1 of Infant School. Also was what should have been Samuels due date, which was a little hard, luckily it was easier as I knew I was pregnant with our rainbow. I had my first midwife appointment too which was nice. I was out as consultant led this time due to the problems we had with Samuel.

October– we had our baby scan this month and all looks good- no problems could be seen and I was tested as low risk on the Down’s syndrome scale too. We officially announced our pregnancy in mid October with a pumpkin picture on Facebook.

The girls had a birthday party to do to and Peyton was very excited to meet Elsa too. For Halloween we took the girls to Over Farm for their event and Peyton even held a snake (with help from Jai)- Kayleigh wouldn’t go near it. We also went trick or treating around my parents area too.

November– we took the girls to watch the firework at the Racecourse for Bonfire Night and when they got home we treated them to sparklers too. The girls wrote letters to Santa. I had a trial babysitting Jai’s 2nd Mums Kids (who are basically the same age as my two!). And my best friend asked my girls to be flower girls for her wedding. She bought them a book called The Special Flower Girl and also got them some baskets and wands to practise with.

December- this year we had the introduction of the Elf on the Shelf (the naughty elf who does things overnight for the kids to see in the morning). He decorated the whole house ready for Christmas and we even got a special Bauble for Samuel to put on our tree. Kayleigh got her Rainbows uniform- ready for her first christingle. Also Jai got a new job as a Team Leader for Starbucks in MichaelWood Services. We also got to see the Coca Cola Truck from the Christmas Adverts. We got to see Kayleigh’s year1 play at school which was lovely 😊. We also had a visit to Santa’s Grotto. Then Christmas Eve spent in our usual way (new pjs and Christmas films all day). Christmas morning we opened all our presents from each other before going to my mums to exchange presents. Then we had a lovely lunch cooked by my parents and after we popped to my nans for a couple of hours so they could give the girls their presents. Then back to my mums for the evening. Boxing Day we spent the day at my nans and basically had a second Christmas with them. NYE was also spent at my mums with us staying round for the night. We played games and had a couple of drinks and welcomed in 2017.

Kayleighs graduation from playgroup!

So the time came and Kayleigh has now graduated from Playgroup. It had been a lovely year at St Barnabas Playgroup. I am so happy she got to go there and am very happy that Peyton gets to go in a couple of years.
The graduation was so beautiful, Kayleigh looked absolutely gorgeous in the graduation gown and cap. Them later on the children did a play of The Gruffalo and Kayleigh and Imogen got to be the mouse (the main part!), although Imogen refused to do it on the day so Kayleigh did it alone. I was so proud of her 🙂 she did very well! Kayleigh then “graduated” with a degree in P.E. because she loves jumping, climbing and running around. My mum, brothers fiancée and Jai came (although didn’t stay too long after)- we had a bit to eat afterwards as the playgroup hosted a buffet. My mum and brothers fiancée were annoying today too and seemed to be funny that I was chatting to friends there.

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Our holiday June 2014

We had a brilliant holiday back in June 2014.. We went to Cofton Country Holiday Park in South Devon and had a brilliant time. We spent most of the time around the camp site as there is so much to do that there isn’t much reason to leave. We enjoyed playing in both the indoor and outdoor pools.

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We also took some days off the site, we went to Dawlish Warren to play in the bigger arcade out there. They have a selection of games for children and for adults. There are games where you can win tokens to put towards prizes at the end. The girls loved it there, although for Peyton it was more of the pretty lights than the games themselves. Also over the weekend they have free face painting so Kayleigh got hers done (granted it only stayed about 30mins before she started rubbing at it and we took it off!).

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We did also take a day trip over to Exmouth. We drove to Starcross and took the ferry from Starcross over to Exmouth. The girls loved going across on the ferry and the beach over there is a little bit nicer than Dawlish beaches. We went into the town to have some food first and then over to the beach.

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The rest of the time was spending lounging around the caravan or around on the sun deck off of the new complex on site.

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The only negative part of the week was that my parents (we’d borrowed their seasonal caravan) forgot to let us borrow their loyalty card so we had to pay full price on all the food and drink on site. Which was a shame as we’d planned to not cook at all throughout the holiday.

Busy, stressful couple of weeks…

So its been a little while since I posted so will try to keep it short and sweet but a lots happened.
Kayleigh came back from holiday with a gross infected finger, which we had to pop, drain and then went to buy her Peppa Pig plasters as she was brave.
Then hubby went out for his best mates birthday night out and his mate knocked hubbys phone out of hos hands and it smashed! So we had to spend £90 to fix it again!

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Peyton has also cut 4 teeth over the past couple of weeks and them coming through are hurting her a little bit.

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Then we tried to get her walking shoes as shes now walking but in Clarks she’s not even a 2 yet (and Clarks walkers start at a 3) so had to go to Mothercare to get her some, they start at a 2 there and fit well.

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We then had some beautiful weather so I had to go and buy the girls sun hats and glasses, although Peytons glasses didn’t last long.

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We also bought a big family sized paddling pool for us during the summer! At first Peyton wasn’t the biggest fan but soon warmed up to it.

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We also indulged in some ice-cream fun during the nicer weather.

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Then this tuesday just gone I had to have an endoscopy and because I was being sedated my Nan and Grandad had the girls overnight for me (& then took them to the farm park the next day). The endoscopy itself was fine, I think I “slept” through it lol, but a bit of a sore throat after. They also found that I have a Hiatus Hernia which may need to be looked at as well as my gallstones. I’m being referred to a surgeon.

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Then on the Wednesday I enjoyed a relaxing day to myself, I picked up the girls at about 3:30pm and went round my mums at about 4pm… She instantly whinged that we were “late” round. She then didn’t talk to me for about 45minutes and I just played with the girls. Then she came in ranting and raving about me being distant or something and I walked out, giving her the key on my way out… I just cant be bothered with the stress anymore! On a positive note though I lost 2.5lbs on my first week at weightwatchers.

My week…

So this week has been very busy. Monday i spent the day with my Grandparents, and they babysat overnight as I was supposed to have an endoscopy that next morning. I left the girls there that night and met Jai from work. When I got there their alarm was going off, they couldn’t get hold of the local police to say it wasn’t a break in and not to come out so they had armed Police arrive to check on them.
The next morning we went to what we thought was my endoscopy appointment but it appeared it was a misunderstanding and that he thought it was a second opinion. He agreed and said we’d do the endoscopy and an ultrasound to check for Gallstones etc. I managed to get an appointment for the ultrasound tomorrow morning and had to wait for a date for the endoscopy.
Then the ultrasound the next day showed that I have lots of very big Gallstones in my Gallbladder which is most likely causing my pains. It appears I’d most likely need surgery to remove my gallbladder to get rid of the pain. Later than evening my dad got upset with me, although I had to hear it from my mum. The girls had used my phone to call him by accident and when he called back I explained this. He was funny because I never mentioned my upcoming surgery. It was nothing personal but he didn’t call me back when i explained this.
My mum was also super selfish this week and stayed down the caravan when she knew that Kayleigh was going down with my Grandparents over the weekend. Kayleigh was sick at school just before she went away too, but seems it was just the excitement.
On friday my mum text me to have a go at me for telling my Grandparents she was down there.. I never said anything and am fed up of being accused and constantly stuck in the middle 😦

Agonising pain!!

So the past week I don’t have a lot to report… Just my usual weekly schedule, visiting my Grandparents on wednesday and Kayleigh started back at playgroup on the Thursday!
I’m quite excited for this term! It’s her last one before the summer holidays and then she’ll be off to school! They have a lot of exciting things planned: trips to Cotswold Wildlife Park and to see Peppa Pig in theatre; and they have a photographer in to take pictures of the class and finally they have a busy last week. During the last week they have a water fun day (weather dependant); they have a trip on a steam train and teddy bears picnic; and then they have a graduation ceremony and buffet lunch for children and parents. So exciting and I can’t wait.

On to the pain side of the post…
I’ve been in excruciating pain for ages now. The doctors had me on ibs medicine for so long that wasn’t working but now I have an endoscopy planned for about a weeks time to look at what is going on inside me. I am terrified but after last night, where I was up in agony (so much pain that I thought I was going to be sick) from 23:55 to 01:45 ish. It is horrible and nothing stops it nor does it make it easier to bear, no painkillers even take the edge off of the pain! Hopefully these tests sort something out for me.